Of pens and murder
Even when I was still a child I had always been admiring of pens in all shapes and sizes. I sometimes admired some pens so much, I stole some of them when I was still very young. While I no longer steal pens at this age (I’d like to think I’m a wee bit more mature), I still have the same admiration and quasi-obsession for these objects. I bought three pens at two American dollars primarily because they were aged and comparatively antique (two were probably at least ten years old). As expected, the ink dried out within a week, and I had wasted two dollars on white elephants. They barely even wrote.
However, I still don’t think I’ve learned my lesson. At this moment I possess this urge to purchase another dated and one-of-a-kind pen from the same antique bookstore which I obtained the previous three pens. I’m not thankful for this attraction, but I am grateful that it’s not an attraction or an obsession that is dangerous to me or others. A number of people do not merely stop with objects as the source of their ephemeral gratification: some result even to murder because of an all-consuming obsession with an idea, whether the idea may be revenge, redemption, or perdition.
My attraction with pens is merely chump change compared to these people, who, by either impulse or deliberation, are so addicted to an idea or a thought that it destroys them along with others. These are the people placed in focus by the two recent examples of media I have watched, Taps and Karakuri Zoushi Ayatsuri Sakon.
I have postponed watching Ayatsuri Sakon primarily because I didn’t really have the interest in probing over the case and figuring it out before Sakon did. I vowed to myself, however, that I would finish Ayatsuri Sakon in time, and in time I did. In the end I found that it was an amusing show; in fact, I would say it was quite good. My moderate praise for this series probably arose primarily from watching Mononoke beforehand. Mononoke simply blew Ayatsuri Sakon away, and the revelations in that series were a lot more startling and disturbing.
I would disagree as well with Baka-Raptor’s comments regarding the later arcs. Episodes 18 – 20 were difficult especially if one disconnected the resemblance between a certain character and Sousuke Aizen (of Bleach). The problem was not made any easier by the fact that there were two criminals involved, and the only time where both had criminal intent. Episodes 21 – 23 were pretty difficult to figure out primarily because of the multi-tiered nature of the crime. While I was able to figure out the involvement of Kobayashi, it was difficult to ascertain until it was noted that a body had disappeared from the hospital, which was late into the arc as well. I figured out everything before the revelation, but I was pretty close to failing. Finally, the closing arc wasn’t difficult to figure out, but it was impossible before the picture had appeared. It was only then when one knew that the reason for those acts were revenge.
I also have a problem with Sakon’s ventriloquism. It’s pretty scary at times, because one always remembers at the back of his head that Ukon is merely a doll. It can even be believed that Sakon possesses the multiple personality disorder because Ukon is nothing more than an extension of his repressed psyche. It’s just really scary if one thought of it that way. The disorder could be easily understood, however: Sakon saw his father take his own life in front of him. I guess I’m grateful that Sakon sharpened his mental deduction and not his knives.
It’s quite funny, though. After seeing that series, I really find little contempt for my want of pens. At the very least, I don’t put other people in danger and I most certainly don’t kill them even if I’m extremely angry with them! I’ll go buy my pens now. 🙂
P.S. Taps isn’t an anime series. I hope I could find time writing on it, as it’s a great film.