‘I can’t go on, I’ll go on.’

While other post-graduates were busily preparing for what to bring the next day, I was on the computer looking at a red-and-black screen, dodging a missile at one point and ducking an alien at another. While they were excited to open a new chapter in their life, I was totally focused on vanquishing the ecclesiastico-military palette.

Enjoy watching.

I was playing the Super Cobra (using the Adventure Vision BIOS) on the MESS and I sought to finish the game (by myself) without infinite Cobras to see whether the game would present an alternative ending or not. I was so besotted with the completion of the game because it would give me closure, a closure that I desperately needed to prove to myself that my lust for that failure of a handheld system was juvenile. I vowed to myself to finish it before classes would start primarily to prevent any distraction from my studies. While I had quite a few misgivings regarding medicine, I am a man who sticks by what he has chosen, and as I had chosen medicine I am going to stand by it (despite the fact that I barely slept yesterday and probably wouldn’t later). After about five days of persistence, I was finally able to finish the game with a limited number of Cobras and I also finally discovered that there was no difference in the ending whether one had infinite Cobras or not: the game kept on without end.

Having played as if demon-possessed for a few days, I could not help but notice the different flaws that the Adventure Vision system had. For one, it was very fragile: a short fall and the rotating mirror mechanism that allowed the game to proceed would break. There would be no more game, and no more system. Another flaw to its design was that it was primarily built with red LCDs. The VirtualBoy was merely an upgrade from this console: both have the same red LCDs that cause eye tiredness, headaches, nausea, and dizziness. Finally, the games other than Super Cobra have barely any replay value: the system possessed mediocre graphics at the time, and once one finished with Super Cobra there wasn’t really anything else left to do but to start all over again (or stop playing, which was what I did).

My finishing of the game came at the most opportune time, because after I completed it I could finally disassociate myself with the game and with the obsession that plagued me for a good few weeks. I could also finally focus studying for the medical profession that I have chosen; and while I am still not quite sure of the decision that I have made I am extremely certain on my commitment to my choice. I can only hope that I can surpass the obstacles that I am encountering currently and the even bigger ones that I will face in the future.

Thank you for everyone who has supported me throughout my stint of blogging. While I probably will not stop watching anime, and while I will probably still blog, it will most certainly be not in the same volume or length as before. Right now I have dealt with three-hour night sleeps: I will probably have to deal with worse.

As Samuel Beckett most aptly put it, ‘I can’t go on, I’ll go on.’

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7 Responses to “‘I can’t go on, I’ll go on.’”

  1. Baka-Raptor Says:

    while I will probably still blog, it will most certainly be not in the same . . . length as before


  2. Ronin AnimeLover Says:

    Hmm. What an impressive mindset. So that explains your absence from the IRC channel. Hopefully I could have that same passion as you for Medicine. It has been beset with scandals, that I can’t help but wonder what the future of the “noble profession” holds.

  3. Ryan A Says:

    Cheers Mike! Glad to see you climbed over a personal hill. The journey continues!!!!

  4. tarsus Says:



  5. Michael Says:


    You are a nasty man.

    Ronin AnimeLover:

    Aren’t you graduating in medical school?

    Ryan A:

    Ah, thanks. But it doesn’t get any easier.



  6. Asperger's Anime Blogger Says:

    I’ve been playing New Super Mario Bros. myself. On a complete non-failure of a handheld console.

    I’ve also been spending time with my brother playing old Sonic games using the Sega Mega Drive Collection Blu-Ray disc for PS3.

    That is a super duper life lesson you learned here Mike, I hope life presents as many victories as challenges for you in medicine. People like you make the meds that make me less annoying, so shine on you crazy diamond.

  7. Ronin AnimeLover Says:

    Michael: No. Actually, I’ve just started attending. Since June 15, so I’m a freshman in medical school. Hahaha.

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