The beauty of Evangelion: you are not alone

I only watched the first Rebuild of Evangelion movie a few days ago. It was on my computer for the better part of a year, and while I had time to spare I simply forgot about it as time passed. When my sister got sick, however, I volunteered to be there with her and the only thing I could do to prevent getting bored was to watch whatever anime was left on my computer (and that was quite a sizable amount). I decided to watch the first movie after recognizing its presence, and I didn’t regret the decision.

While I’m not among those who think of Evangelion as the best anime ever or write fifty-page dissertations on it, I do think Evangelion was a great anime series marred by an irritating and discordant ending. The affection decreased as time passed (and as the venom of 4chan spread within my veins) until I was only lukewarm toward the series. I have not forgotten, however, that Evangelion was among the very few series that I have watched more than once; and while I do not brag of comprehending the nuances of the series (it has quite a number) I do remember enjoying it thoroughly.

I did, however, notice a shift of my perception as regards Shinji (ironically or deliberately meaning ‘truth’). Back then I despised his cowardly and indecisive nature. I was akin to a lot of people who hated his ostensible lack of braveness. Looking back, I was also quite stupid. (I still am, at times, what with the Adventure Vision and all.) Shinji was just barely a teenager tasked to save the entirety of mankind from a horrible enemy that no one was familiar with. The fact that Shinji drove that iron maiden and was able to beat a lot of them in the process is nothing but admirable, even with his whines and littoral cowardice. It could be noticed in the movie that when he was given a choice to fight or to flee he fought despite his desire to flee. Doesn’t that compose courage? Isn’t the performance of the right thing despite an overwhelming fear recognized as courage? One must also note that Shinji didn’t exactly come from a functional family. His father is, to keep things simple, a huge asshole, and his mother simply disappeared. I’m frankly surprised that he didn’t turn out worse, because that cocktail of misfortunes often is the primordial soup of psychopaths.

In addition to this, I have also noticed a subtle change in Rei’s character epitomized at the end of the first film. She finally smiles despite everything. I loved the first film because of how it ended: an atmosphere of destruction and destitution has finally been tempered, despite its fleeting and evanescent nature, by an emotion of hope and friendship – or simpler yet, by an emotion: Rei smiles.

There is not no hope. There is not no happiness. You are (not) alone.

11 Responses to “The beauty of Evangelion: you are not alone”

  1. IcyStorm Says:

    I’ve yet to see this film, but this post makes me want to see it. Downloading it now ~

  2. Hige Says:

    What undermines the bravery of that initial choice to fight is that Shinji seemingly does it to /please/ people. It’s a recurring element to his character: he struggles to resolve what he wants with what others want of him. He rarely acts (until the end, the most pivitol moment) based purely on his own desires; it’s always ‘how will their opinion of me change if I do what they want… shitshitshit’

    I loved the movie, but it didn’t differ from the first bit of the series much at all. It did however infuse End of Evangelion Misato into early TV Eva events and for me this makes it’s totally worthwhile.

    Also, you refer to Eva’s ending but which one? TV or film? Because the film ending is difficult to criticise for me. Combine it with the TV ending and it verges on inspired (spot the fanboy!).

  3. Michael Says:

    I mean the TV ending. The film ending was great. 🙂


    Go do that! :3

  4. Asejah Says:

    Could you recommend this movie to someone who hasn’t watched the series? I have just read ~7 manga volumes of NGE.
    Thank you for an answer ; )

  5. Michael Says:

    Sure, Asejah. It’s a great film.

  6. tarsus Says:

    hey mike, how are things in ilo2x?
    do you ever read or watch anything i give you?

    thomas dekker=best john connor

  7. Michael Says:

    I started on Mafia Fix but I never got to continue it (it’s in Davao) because classes have started and they’ve started so fucking hard. Medical school saps a lot from you. D:

  8. tarsus Says:

    yeah i know.

    studying my blood banking, trying to prepare for MCAT. i got a totally mediocre score on the online sample test, need to review organic chemistry and physics.
    met some great filipino terminatorSCC fans while looking around the internet.

  9. Michael Says:

    Are you planning to go to America for your medical studies?

  10. d-bloc Says:

    Ahhh…finally someone that agrees with me about shinji… the series i highly recommend it……..and the movie… the new ones coming out….

  11. Betty Says:

    Beauty has been a gift for women since ancient times. Though it sounds partial, beautiful women have always been given preference over an average looking woman. Every woman is born beautiful in some way or another. What we need to do is focus on our strong triats and enhance them and they will take care of our traits that do not resemble us in a very beautiful manner.

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