The right kind of pride

I think that the less I write, the dumber I become. I won’t recycle the overused excuse of academics: I’ll just try my best to write. I think that today was a milestone for me because it marked the most recent exam where I simply just tried my absolute best to prepare for. Although it didn’t even have any bearing academically, I simply wanted to prove to myself that I was good at the subjects and the things I wished to be good at: I think I did very well in our exam today in Biochemistry.

It has been a while since I’ve slept late just to prepare for the exams. Oftentimes, I would read through a subject matter once or twice, and then sleep early without minding the results the following day. As long as I passed, I really didn’t mind what my results were. In medicine, I seek to pass: my ultimate goal is to become a doctor. I’m not even thinking about specialization for the time being. I just want an M.D. attached to my name, as well as to prove to my father that I had done his will.

But I’m glad that when I’m focused and passionate, I usually excel at the things I love. Although I may have had as much as 20 or so mistakes from that examination, I have a good feeling that I would be among the top of our class. And that’s enough for me.

Have you guys any of these issues? I just wanted to get this out there, because at least I’m writing something.

2 Responses to “The right kind of pride”

  1. Ryan A Says:

    I think we all go through this in some way with trials and feelings of accomplishment. I haven’t had the same experience with writing and academics because I’m sure my sentiments towards them are different than your own. But I believe physically we do this, running a really good 5K/10K, not running for a while, the feeling that we *need* to run or else we deteriorate. Sometimes the accomplishment is “trivial,” like exercising vigorously in order to have a better night’s rest. I think this activity is important in knowing we can excel, leading to accomplishment of some form. Life may become discouraging otherwise.

    Cheers Michael!

  2. Pablo Says:

    Sometimes we just need to prove ourselves that we are capable of achieving a certain task to keep our peace of mind. I don’t think it has to do with the need of meeting other people’s expectations though, but it may as well contribute to the feeling. You know someone said the best way to make a person surpass himself is to hurt his pride.

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