Well, since I’ve paid for the hosting once again, I might as well update with whatever comes into my mind. Back then, it was to support Animeblogger, but since I just think it’s an absolute waste not to update when I paid an arm and a leg for it once more I’ll just write whatever comes into my mind and hopefully link it to anime. This isn’t a free hosting anymore, after all. I’ll do what I wish to do.
I don’t think I’ll ever lose my love for anime. But I just haven’t been able to enjoy watching any of it lately, primarily because I have the looming final examinations on my mind and because I watch Korean dramas even though I can’t explain why, for the life of me. I just love watching cute real-life girls end up with decent men and endure through difficulties. Plus, come on, Kim Tae Hee is extremely attractive.
I think that it’s because of the respect I wish to accord the anime series I watch. I’m no slouch for looking for challenging, intellectual series, which is why my favorite series of all time is an anime most people don’t even know of and something that probably wouldn’t come out in any of the anime channels here in the Philippines. Most people here don’t know of Tatami Galaxy. Another thing is that I have never expected medical internship to be as spiritually draining as it has been physically, so I rely on less challenging forms of entertainment – or just challenge myself all the more. I can read pocketbooks because I can stop and steal a few pages before another patient comes in, but it simply feels impossible to do that with anime. I like to watch anime to enjoy myself, which I really don’t do well whenever there are patients around. So I just don’t, and just read classics. The last one I read was Brave New World, which was okay. It definitely struck a chord in me, seeing that our ability to think is killed by our wish to be pleasured. But a good idea doesn’t an entertaining and holistic read make.
There’s also the requirements. You’d think that a 36-hour duty would be enough, but one would have to deal with paperwork, let alone critical emergencies such as people dying that the stresses really just pile up one on top of the other. Anime, at least, the anime I watch, definitely isn’t the answer.
So there. Those are the reasons why I don’t watch anime any longer. I want to simply pine for true love these days, seeing that I’m so bereft of it (haha) that I enjoy watching good people end up together. Think of this as a hiatus from anime. Eventually, though, I’ll have to face the fact that I love anime and must make amends. I know that being a medical intern is no plausible excuse, because if I really loved it I’ll find time for it. I will, eventually – just not right now. (But I’ll keep on writing. It may not be about anime, but I simply have to retain something of myself.)