At times, reminiscence, despite everything, provides enough of a stimulus to coerce action. Like an intruder in the dust, its specter appears to different people at certain points in their lives, and this triggers irrational acts. What do I mean? I also quite don’t know.
For the past few days, however, I have been watching Gun-doh Musashi and downloading anime with the use of TorrentStorm. Both objects, while totally different from one another (it should be enough to note that one is an anime series and the other is a torrent client), share the fact that I have liked them in the past for no strong reason whatsoever. When it was last updated in 2005, I was primarily using BitComet and BitTornado. Aside from the fact that these two torrent clients were consistently updated, they also possessed significant advantages over TorrentStorm: the two clients maximized the use of my Internet connection (which wasn’t much). The efficiency of the two clients of TorrentStorm, however, could be perceived in the fact that I could never attain a constant 25 KB/s with TorrentStorm which I could with BitComet and BitTornado (I was on a 256kbps connection back then).
Three years hence, little has changed. TorrentStorm stopped development on 2005: it does not possess DHT; it cannot host trackerless torrents; and it still couldn’t download at optimum speeds, compared to the newly improved BitComet, or the light but heavyweight uTorrent. Because I was fond of the program back then, however, I am using it once more, and I like using it (especially for torrents which are not that exigent for me to complete). There isn’t logical progression in that decision: whereas the same torrent hadn’t gone beyond 5 KB/s with TorrentStorm, it hovered between 55 KB/s and 60 KB/s with BitComet. Yet I still am using TorrentStorm and will use it at times.
The reason is that reminiscence, in all my reflection, doesn’t have to be rational. As humans we cling to the memories we cherish in our past and try to review them and experience them once more. The simple design, the simple logo and the memories I had in using TorrentStorm were quite enough to trigger in me using and experiencing the client once more. This time, however, I have been enjoying its use more thoroughly. Perhaps the same could be said with Gun-doh Musashi: it is quite undeniable that its budget was very low, even for an anime series. There are still frames; most characters, even Musashi, are badly animated; the animation is often out of sync with the Japanese dubbing. While nigh intolerable, I’m at the last (troll)subbed episode. Despite everything, I enjoyed laughing at the bad animation and the horrible subbing. It’s not something most people could do, but it’s something that reminded me to lower my expectations in most things so that I will never be disappointed. In conclusion, memory is quite a powerful thing; perhaps this is why some people can only live in the past.